The Lumpy Bumpy Ride

There are days and dates that are seared into one’s memory – they either remind us of an event worth remembering or an event we would rather not remember. Some of the most important dates in my life and the ones always worth remembering - my birthday, my children's birthdays, and happy anniversaries - weddings, milestones, new beginnings. Then there are the other life altering dates - some I would rather not remember for the pain they still invoke. Days when the trajectory of life changed - July 9, 2019 will now be added to that list. The day my fears were confirmed - I have  breast cancer. The first time I said it I had to shake my head - did I really just say that? Did I really hear that coming out of my mouth? In the days right after my diagnosis, there were so many questions – How did this sneak up on me? What caused this? Am I going to be ok? Are my kids going to be ok? How do I tell my parents? What kind of surgery am I going to need? Will I need chemo and radia...

Life often takes us on unexpected journeys!! My new journey is going to be an interesting ride - and for those of who that have not already heard - I was diagnosed earlier this summer with Breast Cancer. Both saying it and typing it still feels very surreal - I don't feel unwell or sick so how can this be true. But I am told that it is and I have seen the pictures and read the pathology report (over and over to be sure). And so the nurse (who thinks she is pretty smart and competent) becomes the patient - I can tell you it is much easier to put a file away and a note to follow-up in a few weeks than it is to be the one waiting for the follow-up in a few weeks. It is way easier to give reassurance than it is to feel it. It is much easier to research a topic out of interest and curiosity than it is because this is now a real part of my life. I have already learned so much and know that there is so much more to know. For now - I am trying to take one day at a time and getting read...