Name

The story behind the name of my blog is quite funny. The weekend after my diagnosis my daughter was a bridesmaid for one of her good friends. A few days before the wedding, she came with me to the doctor to discuss my biopsy results. Then she was off and running doing wedding stuff - no real time for the two of us to process the reality of my diagnosis. The next time I saw her and even had any time to talk with her was at the wedding reception - she may have been the drunken bridesmaid as she was carrying her little flask around all day!! She can answer that question. When she had a free minute she came over to where I was sitting with a few good friends and in her humorous and sassy way says - "So Lumpy Bumpy ... how's it going?" And so there it was - my new nickname - welcome or not!!

All kidding aside - the name works - I am trying to prepare myself for a bumpy ride even though I have the love and support of so many wondering friends and family (including the sassy daughter).

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