Making it Public

Life often takes us on unexpected journeys!!

My new journey is going to be an interesting ride - and for those of who that have not already heard - I was diagnosed earlier this summer with Breast Cancer. Both saying it and typing it still feels very surreal - I don't feel unwell or sick so how can this be true. But I am told that it is and I have seen the pictures and read the pathology report (over and over to be sure). And so the nurse (who thinks she is pretty smart and competent) becomes the patient - I can tell you it is much easier to put a file away and a note to follow-up in a few weeks than it is to be the one waiting for the follow-up in a few weeks. It is way easier to give reassurance than it is to feel it. It is much easier to research a topic out of interest and curiosity than it is because this is now a real part of my life. I have already learned so much and know that there is so much more to know. For now - I am trying to take one day at a time and getting ready for the next thing. The next thing for me is surgery at the end of the month and going through the recovery time in the following weeks. I am told that there will be chemo after that, and because of the surgery I chose, I will also have to have radiation treatment.

And so, for the 2nd summer in a row - I am facing uncertainty and a measure of fear mixed with a bit of kick-ass attitude to fight this and beat it. I am so grateful for family, friends, and co-workers who have already been walking with me, loving me, praying for me, and often making me laugh. I would be lying if I didn't admit that I question why God is putting me through this journey. While I claim to trust Him, I also admit that there is a part of me angry that once again my life & dreams feel like they are on hold. It is challenging (and quite frankly sucks) to admit that I am vulnerable and need help - yet at the same time, I so value the people around me who are walking with me.

Prayers for me and my kids are always appreciated - if you want specific things to pray for - message me. And if you are not the praying type - I still value your love and support, and you can message me as well!! If you are in the area - come September, I will apparently have lots of time for visits (and naps) - my coffee pot and stash of tea is ready to be used.