The Lumpy Bumpy Ride

It has been a couple weeks since I have posted anything here. My head has not been idle. I have been home recovering from surgery and the one word that has consistently being running through my head is GRATITUDE.  I am a person who does not or will not ask for help quickly - friends can stop laughing here!! If you just spewed your drink while reading that - I'm not sorry!! In my post surgery recovery, I have been surrounded by people who have graciously given meals, time to clean my house, help with yard work, come for visits, and sent messages - I am overwhelmed with love and gratitude. However, in the last few weeks my feelings of gratitude have gone way deeper than the blessings mentioned. Perhaps this has been God's way of preparing me for a set back and disappointment. The gratitude that I have felt has been a recognition of how deeply loved I am by God even though I have felt like a failure in several areas of my life. I am reminded by God that I am still loved and va...

This past Wednesday I walked out of my office not knowing when I might be back. The space between diagnosis and treatment was closed. I think that I did all that I could to help my co-workers to carry on in my absence. I left knowing that my fabulous co-workers will fill in the gaps for me this time. I have called my current office building my work home for the past 9 years - I will not be sad if I don't return to that building again!!! I will be sad if I miss being a part of moving into our new building - we have been looking forward to a new building for so long and the move in is now so close. I left that evening and traded my work wardrobe for a much more casual and comfy look. I left knowing that time at home means more cuddle time with my dog, more time to enjoy being with family and friends, a less rigid schedule, Netflix binges, and perhaps time to try new hobbies. I also left knowing that my cancer treatments were about to start - in less than 48 hours. Friday morning ...